and i still hold your hand in mine...when i'm asleep..

you say that you can hear me cry
why then do you still have to bring tears to my eyes

i really wanted to believe
and i almost did
i thought that if i close my eyes and pretended not to see
it would really all go away
i thought that i had enough love for us both
but i guess i was wrong
i can neither compromise or change me
i cant walk around blind indefinitely

work and school is calling
deadlines are flashing screaming redlights
my cumulating stack or readings are impatiently waiting for my attention
there are other things i need to attend to
more urgent
pressing
and important
i am not willing to throw my life away this time.